Appreciation of Disassociation and Lessons Learnt.

Appreciation of Disassociation and Lessons Learnt.

Thank you.

No, really, thank you!

Thank you for being more than you should have.

For being so kind. So helpful. For being such a good friend.

For all the times you held me together.

For the nights and days we spent talking.

Thank you for being you. For being so perfect all the time.

For never breaking, never showing me the cracks, only the veneer.

Thank you for holding back. For protecting yourself.

For hiding behind boundaries and words.

For being afraid to let anyone in.

Thank you for not being honest with yourself.

For leaving me alone, again, on a limb, on the edge.

For not being here anymore because you couldn't bear the imperfections of your life

Thank you for not loving me enough to let me in

or to wait for me.

Thank ME for loving you.

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Fuck you.

No, really, fuck you!

Fuck you for being more than you should have.

For being so kind. So helpful. For being such a good friend.

For all the times you held me together.

For the nights and days we spent talking.

Fuck you for being you. For being so perfect all the time.

For never breaking, never showing me the cracks, only the veneer.

Fuck you for holding back. For protecting yourself.

For hiding behind boundaries and words.

For being afraid to let anyone in.

Fuck you for not being honest with yourself.

For leaving me alone, again, on a limb, on the edge.

For not being here anymore because you couldn't bear the imperfections of your life

Fuck you for not loving me enough to let me in

or to wait for me.

Fuck me for loving you.