I thought.... - A poem

I thought I'd feel less than I do
now that you're gone from my life,
my mind and probably my heart,
I write the letters I'll never send, or ever
read again, to you
I sing the songs we may have sung to the child that was
never ours, from the chair that may have rocked,
I listen through staticky ears to the voice
I can't recall
whispering sugar-coated vitriol to my soul
I misjudge the jump from peer to ear
and fall into the mess of emotions that
lie in the wake of your passing.

LJ