Faith

It’s a little past Lyrical Sunday, it’s the first day of the new year.  But Michael set “Faith" as the topic and I can’t not write something for him.

Today is my last day in my mum’s home for I don’t know how long. I can’t think that it might be forever. I have to have faith in my ability to find my way back again. I have to have faith that she will come visit me. I have to have faith that the last six weeks have given me the chance to see a life beyond the four walls of my marriage and my relationship with Captain Awesome.

I have faith in the realisation I had when I woke up from an argument in my dream - my life is not in ruins, his choices have not ruined me, they have given me the chance to be more than I was. It’s a new path to tread and by coincidence, it’s the untrod path - the one less chosen.

I have faith that I will find my way, mapping it for others in words. The words will let me see where I was and how far I have come on the darkest days and be a cause for celebration on the lightest.

I have faith that I will find support where I need it most, when I need it most. I truly believe I have the best circle of friends scattered across all time zones...

I have faith that I am a very lucky woman.