 |
It still is, but now I have to be wary of what I write. I have to be aware of who is reading my words. It's not just random strangers anymore, it's family and friends.
I have friends who don't want to know about the twilight times, my mood swings, my paranoia. They want to see the happiness. They have told me as much in real life, I understand this but I still need to write the bad out so that I can see the good. I have things I need want to write about but I find myself censoring my ramblings so as not to hurt X or offend Y or worry Z.
 |
It's not working that well for me. It's making me feel blocked, drained, claustrophobic and fake. I don't want to stop writing, I don't want it to become a fake blog either. I want it to remain honest and I want it to remain a place where people can find a bit of themselves and realise they aren't alone - there's at least one other slightly nutso person out there who struggles to keep all the balls in the air.
Bear (bare?) with me and I will find my way back. And if you have any words of encouragement, advice, especially if you are one of my nearest and dearest please leave a comment.
 |
This is something every blogger struggles with I think - expect if you're the fakie type who has an alias for everyone and blogs in secret.
ReplyDeleteat the end of the day you are blogging for you. You could always warn those who read it that they will be getting Real here. Or you could restart. Or do whatever it is you want to do! Its all yours baby!
I struggle with the same! I know family and friends read what I write and so I do have to think twice what I say. Hope you find a solution that works for you!
ReplyDeleteThat is why my blog is now anonymous! As you know lol I am totally real on my blog and it's not all sunshine and roses and at the moment it's so bad but it helps me a lot to get it all out even if i know it's only you reading it lol. You have been my biggest supporter. So i will cheer you on all the way!
ReplyDeleteI think go for it... be yourself.......those raw REAL rantings that people have are honestly the best kind.
ReplyDeleteREAL people have shit days... REAL people feel grumpy and sad and YUCK sometimes. I think if people can't handle it then they really should "unfollow" you and look away! Their problem not yours!
:) All the best.